hahah my life is too exciting le ....Pack and pack .....Phy , emo and spiritual drain .....hahahah Mich and ray 's sage ended and I lost two buddy . Will stephen lost himself .....hahahah The more I show my weakness the more I felt it was used against me ...........My emotion was in a mess that I decide to sms to the person how i felt instead which I felt it was best.
I was quite surpise with what my close fren in school told me:


Kelvin says (12:19 AM):
*u are juz too honest
Kelvin says (12:19 AM):
*in yr case, helpful u can be, but the fact is u cant get thing right eventually
Kelvin says (12:20 AM):
*yr effort can be seen, but it is hard to recognize
Kelvin says (12:20 AM):
*no doubt abt it, effort 100%, result 0%

True to an extent ....

All my close fren in school really think very highly of me .But I am not that great after all as I face problem same as them some time worse LOL .


Kelvin says (12:41 AM):
*stephen, in our mind/impression, u r the purest among us
Kelvin says (12:41 AM):
*let us juz keep the good image of u, for it is the fact

I was touched and sad . I am touched that I impacted them ....But sad is that I cant be at the same level as them standing beside one another , encouraging each other or laughing together at our problem .I hope it can be a same level frenship.

Will I be a person that god will curse for my disobeience ....... I really dont know time will tell.....If I am hahaha flee hahaha because my god is that powerful ...LOL
12:48:00 AM