hahahah just clarify the reason for some issue ......actually don't need to do so i also know ..... because I know the SOP of it ....... hahaha but nevertheless went to clarify ... But end of the day , it still trouble me . I effected me so terribly until my emotion is going to explode . But nevertheless I control quite a lot hahaha

I just dont know how to continue . The mountain is like so big . Ask a good friend what next , he know on "haiz' , "I dont know" & "go and talk to god" it gave me the impression that he cant be bother . I did hurt . But I think he is helpless .

But he did asked me to read a book on "holy discontent"

Worse things is I am sick + there an FYP issue which is the company said what we did does not meet the requirment at all . Currently dont know if we need to rework a not .hahahah problem after problem . na for me problems is not the issue emotion issue that the problem hahahah .

just have the holy discontentment .... But there one prayer I need to pray .... is to be humble and to have self-control ....how can one man win a system ... possible until god allow ... Will stephen survive his saga .....I lost in my dear fren michael 's saga .... End of the day , I lost two close buddy .... Will I lose myself now ?

I will have to make a decision , which is to continue giving my best with god ... now my heart is not listening much ... But I believe as I continue to seek him ....my best will be with my mind and heart. hahah
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