Thursday, July 09, 2009
Tired ................................................ I felt like doing what I want ........... Meeting expectation drain me .............. Pleasing Men and only men ...................... When I fear it always happen .......I really cant think when i nv happen..........................I know he is good , faithful and just....... but I just dont know why he always make my fear come true .............. testing my faith ??? ............ Ppl close to me who know my life , like to say my life like very tough like that ........True ... but it not like there dont have any good time .......But for me good times come unexpectedly but bad time come as expected ...... if like I know when bad things going to happen dots ...........for today is the second ut my key board failed me ...............When home with my ex-classmates ....... they was like asking me "Hey what happen to you stephen.your ut grade does not reflect you " ... Beat me like I know .......Am I slacking or am I that busy ...........hahah nehe is year 4 ...should be god plan .... if god plan for me year 4 go ahead lor ... your servant have no choice .....hahaha I know what my ex-sheep backsilde he just dont want to be control by fate hahaha .....he want to create his own ........I want to vend my anger my emotion here ....But I will just cause more trouble for me ......hahaha so who bother ......think I so free ah always want ppl to rebuke me becuase of my blog posts ..... LOL ..... I need to believe he is in control ......my mind believe 100% my heart - 100 % . 100% + -100% = 0% hahah ..... Let see how it goes .....