Yesterday Family event was totally horrible. Dinner was ok ...Ate good foods ...Cousin injured her leg .Currently on cast due to motorcycle accident. Another One injured also due to motorcycle accident but it not as serious .But the second one is no license but want to try to ride =_="

For of crap , the two accidents are really crappy ....Is life all about excitement ??? haha Was quite sad to heard for my aunts "stephen you blog so boring .Why all words one ". I was like " I am sure I wrote more insteresting stuffs than other can ?? I wrote what I thought what I learnt .But other only wrote what they do how they felt ? But is not like I nv wrote them like that .

Next When for bowling ....After the first game , was very tired but ppl want to go for the second .
Obviously second game was crap for me .Every balls I misses or hit a few , people was like ."Stephen you need to do this and that. In my heart ,I was like "If you are dead serious wanting to teach me .When It is your turn to bowl you will show me the "how to bowl part". It is because bowling is not a game that you just saysay ppl get it .

Adults something are just nob.I will be the last man laughing at you children believe me .I really Love & care for all my cousins .But I really have limited time & resources. I remembered once I was told If I put god's kingdom first in my life . Obviously god will protect things important to his people.


But as a christian I need to love .God I really need more of your love and compassion.I see the value in investing time in other . But sometime It really draining . I hate prideful ppl .I hate ppl who wear masks .But these two area I have the most compassion on .Maybe because I am prideful & I did wear a mask around .But because jesus have entered my life .I have growth .

Everyday I was being drain my man expectation . Very draining can .

All the closer buddies I treasured : Is not like I dont treasured all my friends

Rui hao
Thomas
gary mok
Mich
raymond

Some are in this race .Some are not . Will I see them in the future. Surface frenships in the world are easy to build. But not many people know what my vision is ?? haha Who is with me??? haha I dont know ?
10:10:00 AM

After I read Daph & Luke blog ...I really make me wonder ...What will make me fall in to despair ....Maybe in the future ...wife , children & family all die at one shot ba ....Hope to experience that at least once in my life .

I get I brough up in a way .Where many things is reason with logic ??

For eg. when I saw this "no biblical evidence to suggest that the desperate act of troubled person will prevent him from ever entering the presence of God"

I was like that there no biblical evidence said the person wont ....right ? hahah

Even after reading the link daph I still agrue with it ....

For example :All who do not trust Jesus alone, by faith are not forgiven and go to hell when they die .

Q: Do we always trust jesus alone ....Even me myself cant say that .

After reading the first part ...A question ring in my head again

Q:How do you ask for forgiveness when you are dead ?? Is it when your soul see god one-on-one then you ask ???

Let continue reading .....

Suicide is, in effect, self-murder. The unfortunate thing about it is that the one who commits it cannot repent of it. The damage is permanently done. We can see in the Bible that murderers have been redeemed (Moses, David, etc.), but they had opportunities to confess their sins and repent. With suicide, the person does not. But that does not mean the person is lost. Jesus bore all that person's sins, including suicide. If Jesus bore that person's sins on the cross 2000 years ago, and if suicide was not covered, then the Christian was never saved in the first place and the one sin of suicide is able to undo the entire work of the cross of Christ. This cannot be. Jesus either saves completely or he does not.

Is suicide always wrong?

That I cannot answer because I cannot list every possible situation. But, it seems obvious that suicide is clearly wrong, though forgivable. However, there are general categories of suicide that we could briefly comment on:

Medically Assisted Suicide - I've never seen this as being acceptable. The doctor is supposed to save life, not destroy it. But, lately as destroying the lives of the unborn is more common place, destroying the lives of the sick has become the next logical step.

Suicide to prevent prolonged torture - Let's say that someone was being tortured in an excruciating manner for an unbearably long period of time, is suicide an option? Perhaps. But if it were in this situation, why wouldn't it be all right in the medically assisted context if the patient were also in excruciating pain for long periods of time? Quite honestly, I'm not sure how to answer that one.

Suicide due to depression - Of course, this is never a good reason for suicide. Seasons pass and so does depression. The one who is depressed needs to look to Jesus and get help. Depression is real and powerful and is best fought with help. Also, severe depression robs the mind of clear thinking. People in such states are in a real way, not in their right mind.

Suicide due to a chemical imbalance in the brain - The human brain is incredibly complex and the medical community is full of accounts of extraordinary behaviors by people whose "circuits got crossed." I don't see how a situation like this would make it justifiable. I think it simply would make it more explainable.

Accidental suicide - Sometimes people accidentally kill themselves. This could mean leaning over a balcony too far and falling to one's death, or actually, purposefully taking a stupid risk like playing with a gun. Of course, with either, stupidity does not remove us from the grace of God.

Conclusion
Is the Christian forgiven for suicide? Yes. But suicide is not an option. We do not have the right to take our own lives. That belongs to God.

Therefore it DOS ...Depend on situation ....

Q: What if no one give you an option , you have only one option which is suicide ? How ?hahah lame question ....

I cant really say I know why my life is so tough compare to other maybe is the way I was brought up I may think .

But i dont think so ..I still felt it under god plan still .
Since my youth day , ppl had being asking me "Why" I faced so many problems ...Sometime I really want to tell them ."Like I want like that ask god la he so free".

Sometime I look at ppl with frens encouraging them in things ....My heart will like "wow so good how I wish I had too" hahah truefully speaking " I grown up without out much encouragement from man do I have a choice....I doubt so "

Many things push me to growth ...for example , I was taught if you want to grow , just find ways to grow .if you have the will you have the way....That one reason why I am who I am today ...but also not forgetting god la ....

Curious what is install in the future .........What is despair for stephen ???? Looking forward & not looking forward...Mixed hahah

Bring it on god challenges my logic ....i know I will lost ...But in order to influence the more logically I need to lost ...

http://www.carm.org/questions/other-questions/if-christian-commits-suicide-he-still-forgiven
10:19:00 PM

If you guess .... I am not thinking anything you are wrong ....From what I know "suicide" is a sin which I know wont go heaven ...But how true is it ??? That what I was taught ....But ppl are are saying who are we to judge ??? But we hope to see the person go heaven ???? Obvious I also want.

Just was thinking if the person who taught be based on a strong evidence in the bible ....And the end of the day is not true ...Why am I even beliving in god ??? Is like "The"....

If "suicide" can go heaven ...We just need to say to non-b "if you are in the hurry to go heaven ,just accept god and then suicide that is simple right ?"

I also can plan when to suicide ...is like end of the day I still reach the same place

No worry , no intention of suicide ...These are just thougths...

So decided to do some reading up ....to see what ppl think of it ...

These are what ppl wrote:

If the person who committed suicide did not judge, did not condemn, was a person that forgave others, what does that tell you. It all goes back to the fact of what is in their heart? If they were this type of person, they won't be judged, or condemned, they will be forgiven and will be in heaven.

Q:When you decide to suicide isnt it a action after you condeming yourself ???

How do you define "Suicide"???

According to Dictionary.com, suicide is defined as "the intentional taking of one's own life.

For example ,a woman who's been smoking her whole life, and has gone from doctor to doctor, and each one tells her that if she doesn't stop smoking she's facing her own death. And then shortly there after the woman dies of lung cancer. She knew that she was harming herself. She heard the warnings, yet she didn't take them to account. Is that suicide?

Another example , an obese man, struggling with high Cholesterol, diabetes, heart problems. And all his doctor advises him to do is diet and exercise, but he doesn't listen, and dies of a heart attack? Where's the line of what suicide is or not.

If you base in the meaning "intentional"....We dont know if it is "suicide " because we dont know the intention.But if it is "intention" then you should know what it mean.

This one it also good :reflective

Regardless of a person's salvation, the act of suicide is the ultimate trespassing of the two greatest commandments: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength." "Love your neighbor as yourself."

We shouldn't concern ourselves with the eternal destination of someone who has committed suicide, but we can certainly conclude that suicide is a sin based on these two commands. When someone takes their own life, they are making an irrevocable decision to put themselves before God; at that particular moment they love themselves with all their heart, soul, mind and strength.

This takes us to the next commandment. It is impossible to love your neighbor after you're gone. In the state of suicidal tendency, our only thought is of our self. If we would apply that second command to our self-centeredness during our darkest hour, we would actually be saved by our neighbor and live to love another day.

So is suicide the unpardonable sin?

That's not up to you or me to decide. Instead of worrying about if someone will go to Heaven or Hell due to suicide, we should focus our efforts on the reasons they find themselves is such a state of despair. Do they know Jesus? Have they forgotten who Jesus is? Do they know who they are? These are the questions we should ask. Once we have a starting point we can then move forward with the message of hope hope of life eternal rather than infernal.

After reading this section ....I was like "LOL" srry ah god hahah but did I found some intersting stuffs to thik about ?
3:31:00 AM

hmmm but end of the day ...What "StephenHope " hahah.... Because no matter what the situation might me ...We need to see " hope" in god . "Hope" is really a big word .

When I felt accepted christ . It not about the ppl who attracted me .It more to god that attracted me sound a lttle gay . But it true . Beside just being my lord and saviour , he is the "Hope" in all men problem.

haha there is someone who turn away from god and lead his/her own life .Some ppl did give up on the person .It true I felt like giving up before .But as I look to god ...there is sure more than giving up .Only one life and soon it will passed , how many lives do I want to give up on in my life time . Iasked myself .But ended of the day , god still moved in this person lives . I beleive god will move more .but also depend if the person allow it or not =)

In one life time , you will meet many ppl . But not many ppl ,you are given the chance to impact.
An impact required efforts .For example , when you slam a door , force is needed in order to slam it .

So are you giving your all & taking all the chances god given you to make an impact ??? that one question i need to ask myself too.

There many ppl I want to impact but there so little time .How I wish I have more time ....
11:47:00 PM

I Pon sch today the feeling rocks ....very sick of going sch . Competition is so heat up .hahaha normally for me if man is my mountain I will break it with all my might , I dont mind destorying it .The result is may destory someone la

haha But if be good person , ppl just shut me up and yes need forgive them .What if Ppl take it for grated how ?? haha

NAFA on sat , it crash with my fyp meeting which one should I go ? Which factor should I based on ?? For me if I cant decide I wont go for both .

3 -5 June red cross camp ... It also crash my fyp schedule .

Sad to say this week worship not very well plan ....no theme , songs chosen on the day itself .

Yesterday had a heated up conversation with someone ....I guess maybe is holy discontentment ba .

Why do some ppl in the guys group stick to the gal group more often ?? This show there some issues in the guys group right ??

I will there is many reasons to this :

Example :
Prefer relating with gals than guys
Felt more love/confortable there
Despo (I dont think so la)

But end of the day .....It self-centreness ..It's a painful truth. So what there a issue in the guys group did you try all ways to do sometime about it . On the other hand you got issues yourself too . If everyone decided to do what they prefer to do . What will a group be , everyone leading their own live.Therefore it not a cg . I can get this from the world .It maybe more fun.

if you ask me , where did my batch of trasfer go ?? Mostly lost to the world hahah What drive me ....Cg ?? the percentage not much . It more to my purpose in christ .it really look like I am the only one left in my batch .How would I feel ? hahaha I dont think i will feel "yes i am the lastman standing " haha I guess sadness will come frist.
1:13:00 PM

Happy Mother Day .....
This what my sis & I got for our mum this year :


When to my grandma house to give her a surprise LOL my dad 's idea quite thoughtful of him haha .

Then had a family dinner ....It simple hahah but it is enjoyable because my family love language is "Time" hahah.

Wah I got another "B" emoing lol affect is confirm because I am a perfectionist .But na choose not to overeact LOL .....
8:52:00 PM

In authentic Christian fellowship people should experience a mutual dependency. This mutuality is the art of giving and receiving; it's depending on each other.

The Bible says, "The way God designed our bodies is a model for understanding our lives together as a church: every part dependent on every other part" (1 Corinthians 12:25 MSG).

Mutuality is the heart of fellowship: building reciprocal relationships, sharing responsibilities, and helping each other. Paul said, "I want us to help each other with the faith we have. Your faith will help me, and my faith will help you" (Romans 1:12 NCV).

All of us are more consistent in our faith when others walk with us and encourage us. The Bible commands mutual accountability, mutual encouragement, mutual serving, and mutual honoring.

Over fifty times in the New Testament we're commanded to do different tasks for "one another" and "each other." The Bible says, "Make every effort to do what leads to peace and to mutual edification" (Romans 14:19 NIV).

You are not responsible for everyone in the body of Christ, but you are responsible to them. God expects you do whatever you can to help them.

End of the day it our best that matter .Doing our best with god haha .....

Wah I feel I losing how to express my emotion ....die I going to be robot ...hahah
9:16:00 PM

"But if we live in the light, as God is in the light, we can share fellowship with each other. Then the blood of Jesus, God's Son, cleanses us from every sin. If we say we have no sin, we are fooling ourselves, and the truth is not in us" (1 John 1:7-8 NCV).


In Christian fellowship people should experience authenticity.

Authentic fellowship is not superficial, surface-level chit-chat. It's genuine, heart-to-heart, sometimes gut-level sharing.

It happens when people get honest about who they are and what is happening in their lives. They share their hurts, reveal their feelings, confess their failures, disclose their doubts, admit their fears, acknowledge their weaknesses, and ask for help and prayer.

Authenticity is the exact opposite of what you find in many churches. Instead of an atmosphere of honesty and humility, there is pretending, role-playing, politicking, superficial politeness, and shallow conversation. People wear masks, keep their guard up, and act as if everything is rosy in their lives. These attitudes are the death of real friendship.

It's only as we become open about our lives that we experience authentic fellowship. The Bible says, "If we live in the light, as God is in the light, we can share fellowship with each other...If we say we have no sin, we are fooling ourselves" (1 John 1:7-8 NCV).

The world thinks intimacy occurs in the dark, but God says it happens in the light. We tend to use darkness to hide our hurts, faults, fears, failures, and flaws. But in the light, we bring them all out into the open and admit who we really are.

Of course, being authentic requires both courage and humility. It means facing our fear of exposure, rejection, and being hurt again.

Why would anyone take such a risk?

Because it's the only way to grow spiritually and be emotionally healthy.

The Bible says, "Make this your common practice: Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you can live together whole and healed" (James 5:16 MSG).

How well am I doing in this area ? Good question to reflection

11:46:00 PM

1:13:00 PM