Just went for U&I camp , it was not fun .But did manage to catch up with people .I only go for Wed and thru .Manage to talk to Jeffy , we talk about when red cross started how many are from "Hope" .Micheal . Emily , Jeff ,jas, ck ,Raymond and me .It already a CG size man.I sometime wonder does Hope Rp hate Red cross .Now it left me and Emily.How interesting ? When talking to Jeff , i am really tearing man . It like flashback when everyone want to make a impact in Red cross to glorify god .And now , it totally different.

I can say we did it in and way on another. The reason is people looked at our action .
I will say a CG can cannot contain new fruits it you cant contain the current fruits .It totally common sense .People may say why am i discouraging people .I will say it is not .

Because that mean you are not faithful with the current fruits .How can god bless you ?
Got a question to ask it the group even read this post = Did the group contact ck or raymond ?
It is a yes .I love that ans .
It a No . What the reason ? It is it because it the shepherd responsibility not your an a cg member . Yours know the ans .If a shepherd is that powerful why people leave because of a group .

I am quite lost haha I know i have to CONTINUE even all my love one had left .But the burden is heavy .Sometime i felt that i am carrying all their hope and dream .Sometime i just bomb all to god .

Am i trapped in the past ? Some people may think that .A little haha the past is to be learnt for it .But sometime it not about me it my group .I wont used "these" group because it is my CG . And i treasure them till sometime i just follow.

And I tell you a secret , I trust my cg more than my shepherd .Why ? because his word sometime "A" action sometime "B" that what I think

My PP is done .God thank for being with me the whole time hehe .I felt that god give me a lot of chance to grow.Everyday you can grow , you just need to observe. haha

Will i be going service tomorrow ? I got three events crashed that include service.Haiz ....
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