This Song hit me ,super hard today ....to hard till no comment .

• Am i really using my life for god ?
• Do i really want god to mould my heart ?
• Am i having compassion for the people around me leading life without a purpose ?
• If i want to make a differences , am i investing my life in people lifes ?
• How eager am i to run toward god ?
• Are my actions showing that i love god ?

These are only some Questions that rushed into my head ...You can try answering those Questions ?

10:51:00 PM

Wow i felt that there many things in my mind ? My dear bro mich what should i do to help you ? haha sadly i am quite affected by you .Therfore resulted me to be a little lost dots ....

Where my shepherd ? haha attended service for two to three weeks le after my bday week ..Still nth was really settle .If i am a new-b , i long gone .Some people felt that i not very stable now .

Hmmm it true to an extent .During my bday week , i was totally disappointed by words that is said to me . I really want to just scream at the person and said "dont act you know me very well" & It not that i do not open to you but you nv even bother to take the first step to want to understand me .

After weeks ,why am i going church ? haha am i left out ? Sometimes unless i take the first step to talk to other . Haha ...I will say ..I really cant imagine how will i react to the sitution i am now .If i received god a year later or so .I dont think i will even surivived.

I make it through my first 10 months in T without a Shepherd .But i think the reason is that i have a bro with me who want to understnad more about god's heartbeat .And spread god perfect and unconditional love to other .Both of us had been supporting one another through these 10 months ....We laugh about our mistakes , rejoys when souls are been save , tears when people reject god and encourage each other when we are weak .

When we have a shepherd , many things changes .I think the one of reason is that in the past is we lead ourselves but now people leading .haha at the start you were close with our shepherd .I was not open at all .

Reasons
1) I open up to people who truely want to know me
2)I need time
3)I dont know my shepherd at all

When i dont open to him , he dont talk to me one .When i open he comment everything like he know me for years .

To me , if i want to judge i will say when people is open to you .It show you have power over that person .On the other dont misuse the power because the power is given by the person .LOL

It being weeks , since he talk to me , haha he has 5 sheeps now , me , mich , nehe , ray & kaien .But he not meeting me , dont talk about meeting it been log since we had a normal conversation .People may say i am jealous my shepherd not meeting me. But the issues is we dont even talk at all .LOL ...Sometime i think to myself , is a sheep that cheap .You want you have dont want throw .It rare in my life , i experienced this, it give me an impression like a shepherd dont want the sheep haha .Normally , the sheep bites the shepherd but now it different .For me , i can understand my shepherd is a human after all .

I heard he is recovering after a bite or what i dont know . But if you dont wan talk or want to change sheep you can let me know .Because i dont want it to hang there.Sometime i really wonder i am your sheep because no choice (because of the system) or you want one .These are just some my mind only .

The reason i am still going to service etc

Because I know I need god .




12:23:00 AM

When to look read up some old teaching .

I read the last lesson of 18 lesson , how often do people read 18 lesson ? Haha i dint know but i felt the 18 lesson is your foundation building .

Lesson 18 : Commitment to a local church

Why is the church importance ?

1) God want to reveal his eternal purpose and his plan through the church .
2)The church is an instrument that god uses to expand his kingdom

Ephesians 3:10-11
10His intent was that now, through the church, the manifold wisdom of God should be made known to the rulers and authorities in the heavenly realms, 11according to his eternal purpose which he accomplished in Christ Jesus our Lord.

3) God intended to build his church

Matthew 16:18
18And I tell you that you are Peter,[a] and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades[b] will not overcome it.[c]

Meaning of the church

It mean a group of people called to come out and to be free form sin and the power of Satan and enter the righteousness and the light of god .

The bible used this word as a group of committed christian not as a building

What it mean by committed christian ? (Do your own research)

There is two types of church in the bible
1)Universal church

- Which mean those who believe in te lord , repent and be born again every place
It like christian in general

2)Local church

-Which mean a group of committed christian that gather together in the same area and meet together on a regular basis
-We cannot see the universal church in a practical way .
So the local church relates to our daily life of christian

I think that all for today .There a link below

Title :Mark of a committed christian
http://www.biblebb.com/files/MAC/GTYTT01.HTM
11:34:00 PM

WoW i Survive today ...Had a emotion Warfare , smsed in classAnd i got shot like Crazy .Was so ......angry and stunning by all the person answer .Super felt like walking out of class , go home and sleep.

But i make it today haha .During first break , randomly listen to a song .




4:25:00 PM

I am emotionally drain ...God i need your wisdom ...By my own i really dont see hope ...But through you there is hope ....haha

Your grace is enough =)
11:29:00 PM

Hmmmm Last week and this week service was great .

Speaker:Pastor Simon

Title :Maximizing Your Student Life

1)Build Spiritual foundation

Basic
1.1)Reading and understanding the bible

1.2)Prayer life
-How often do we pray for the ppl around us

1.3)Church Life
- Are we missing Service ?

2)Acquire Skills

2.1)Learning to serve

Being involved in people life not just doing act of service

-this is the point which i hope people apply haha .I not easy to be involve in people life as people nature are self-centre .

2.2)Leadership
-Dare to try as god see the potential in all of us to do great thing for him

2.3)Administrative

-Management
Eg .Data ,People ,Notes

3) Manage your resource

Key : Knowing how to manger yourself

3,1)internal principle

3.2)Time & talent

3.3) Life -style
-Having a healthy life style so that you can do more

For this week is Turning weakness into strengths

1) Weakness keeps us humble

Sin is not equal to weakness

Weakness can be cause by our surrounding

How you know you are humble ?
- you will appreatice people around us

2) Weakness cause us to rely on god more

3) It reveal god 's strength

Both strengths and weaknesses are equally important

When to watch HanCock at E hub at 215am .

It am interesting movie .

It quite true it show that everyone wan to be like and love . In the begining , he do thing his way with a movtive to help which cause people to dislike him . This reflected back to the world sometime we do things with a good heart to help people but with the wrong methods .

So it show in order to help .You need a willing heart and wisdom to choose the best way

But no one really know how hancock felt .Until he save a man called " i forgot le " .That man went to his level to understand what hancock is feeling and his needs in order to help him .

For us ,sometime we said we want to help you frens this and that but do we go the extra milies to understand the person 's feeling and needs first .It because this will also us to find the root to the problem .

The person who need help also need to admit he or she need help la .If you dont admit you are weak there is no way people can help you .

The ending part was as interesting part .But i have a few angle in looking at it .
1) Looking at the big picture
2) Win Win Solution

You should watched it.

It being two weeks since andrew never talk to me and suddenly he prasie me during my celebration. Got that weird funny that it all ctraps .But it a feeling but so glad he talk to me .Is like wow my shepherd talk to me lol .So happy lol
1:55:00 PM

Got Very nice song to Share with my audience ..




This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?Where do I stand?
A little lost here.But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on
I'll go on.Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.
11:16:00 AM