Thursday, May 29, 2008
Haha did have AN interested week , and tomorrow it the last day of school before a two weeks holiday haha ...On mon , when for some Cg teaching after school and UT . Super tired and learnt that before le ...Not to be "not supportive" but just listen ...lol
After that , as i was on the Way out of School , I did not see a Step and Step on air ....Then Twisted my right ankle , I was like "crap" Super pain ...I can say that was my first time twisted my ankle dots la ....The CG prayed for me , i normally dont have much faith in healing one cause i know everything happen for a purpose .So if you injured is god allow it what ...haha
Cant really walk , the more i walk the more pain it is LOL...The worse thing is i have to cross a overhead bridge to my house ...I took quite a while to cross it ...
When back , rest a little too pain and lazy to do rj , drag and drag but still manged to do it ...As my dad was sleeping ,told my mum about it .My mum was like "what you thinking at that point of time "haha super funny
After i bath , she rubbed my ankle for me .And told me if can ask my dad to send me to school the next day if too pain dont go school .I was like "interesting "
It was tue morning , and i really cant wake up , my mum was that "Hey your dad said he will send you to school so faster" .As i got out from bed , my ankle was more pain ...I was like "haiz"
My heart dont know if i should go school a not .But my heart "just said go and see who is install"SO i went to school , my sis was so loving ,due to my ankle i cant do things fast to my sis who had school have to wait for me .
I told her ,you ask dad to send you .I go myself .She said "never mind late only what"
I was like "woah" That is one of the rare moment my sis phone me above her ...Not saying she very bad ...BUt i am touch .....
I reached school quite early about 740am .Had some tough time walking but still can ...As i on my lap , to my horror my Internet got problem ...Cant connect for about half a day ...Quite sian as i can do much but i did my best in going around my team to discuss ...
Quite irritated at that point , but i know there are many thing i cant control just make the best out of the whole situation.
Haha Some of my frens did ask am i ok ...I was a little surpised but at least they bother lol....
To Be continue ...
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Haha I am here to testified how faithful is god if you decided to choose and do what is right before him . Firstly I am so glad that Fione and Roy came for service yesterday haha and as you choose to please him he will bless ...But sometime if you dont please him he will still bless ...Yesterday service what the FULL summary of what i have learnt from what i gone through from Arete Camp till not long ago .If you say it a fun process .I will say "Na" I never even Enjoyable .The reason why i said it a summary , it is because after I make my decision then this sermon come . I did wonder "why didn't this sermon come when i am in the storm "...I did asked god How lame(not phy) can he be ....haha
As the whole sermen is preached Point to point , I cant stop laughing .The reason is that , at every points , i remembered the moments which god test or reminded me on that point.
The feeling was like "Hmmm That was interesting ". haha
I felt that this whole experience for the two months in like God"s action to me .As for me , i always felt that action Speak the most .
God also meet my concern , beside giving a summary for me ,it also reminded people who are very dear to me about their responsibility....My heart was like "Woah" You sure know what am i worrying about "
I will say specifically , I will say it the decision making part .Yes,No and Maybe/Dont know ....As maybe and dont know it already a decision .
For me , it may be think of the bridge - diagram which you used to share christ to other . As i remember clearly , after you share there are three stick man on the paper
1) yes your want to receive god into your life
2)Not so sure // maybe / don't know
3)No
Why is "Not so sure / maybe / don't know "included ..I did wonder a while ...But nevertheless i always got my answer .It somewhere in my head but can say got rusty LOL .The answer is it still a decision .
It made me reflection on myself , for me personally, I don't really like people to use those words....if i am not wrong i forgotten why .I will say from the start of the sermen to the ended i never stopping thinking .....
Wah i getting lazy ...It too long la ....I like being detailed but tired sia ....
Lastly the reminder of "Ownership" & "Parthership" were brought in .....
After Service , sented Fione to her sis and they went to eat .
For me , when back to the group for dinner ..Then Etc ...Lazy ....
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Wahwah God you too interesting le la .....Can you give me a break ...Sometime i barely survived a day haha .... =(haha Roy ask me an interesting question , why my life revolved around god ? Come to think of it why ? It being a christian fun ??? Haha that depend ...Out of my 6 years is is like bad time more than good time la ...I think if you want to grow like that one la ...A bit dumb i felt sometime " why grow so fast " Grow too fast wait cant manage haha .....How i wish i am more stubborn can grow slower haha ...
The more you grow the probelm get even more crappy ....If you think god is a simple god ..Na i doubt so ..he is the most complex one ...If he can come out with a human brain you know how complex can he be .....But he can be simple hoping god no mood swing ...
Why do i do what i do ? Maybe i felt it was the right thing to do .Despite all the stress i faced ...
I do envy ppl leading a simple life ....
Come sch do their best in their study , after sch hang out with frens updates about each other ... Go home spend time with family ...I will say a person only need a few frens dont need many ...
haha come of think of it , in church ppl all are your bros and sis ....Hmmmm how many are our hi byes sibling haha make sense ?
As i was bathing i thought of something interesting ....it about spirtual family ...Which you look as a whole is the church ...If you look Short term it Caregroup ....As you change not often but quite alot of time in a life -time ....Hmmm So where is your long term one hahah It will be your family with the future parther haha isnt that interesting ....
I dont know how true is it ...But i felt god make ppl who wan a simple life lead it ver complex and ppl who wan a complex life to lead it simple ...
For me everything in my life are all expected , the more we dont wan he will bomb , and usual he nth better to do .
Til I See You
The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You
With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You
I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You
You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you
You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name
haha Thank for your conforting Words
God you are so interesting ...haha things happening around me looked so expected ...Does that proves that my judgement is always right ??? That depend but if i based on obsevation it more or less right....But once is a while my judgement may be wrong ....
One things i know judgement is always pass on to people due to their action or speech .But cant be movtive ....It is something unseen ...So That why the word "trust" comes in ..it the key ....
A bit cant believe ...As how i wish what i see is not what i expected it to be .... haha Emo for 3 mins to 5 mins only ...
I need all my good habits back haha like if you angry or sad , emo or complain to god a few mins then faster moved on le haha
Am i alone .....haha i may look like that ...But haha WHO knows haha
lalalalala god test is always interesting but i starting to loving it again haha "god make my heart to loves it more "
Just to updates my readers i will do reflection daily...Reflection in god 's Words haha ....
1:10:00 PM
One things i know judgement is always pass on to people due to their action or speech .But cant be movtive ....It is something unseen ...So That why the word "trust" comes in ..it the key ....
A bit cant believe ...As how i wish what i see is not what i expected it to be .... haha Emo for 3 mins to 5 mins only ...
I need all my good habits back haha like if you angry or sad , emo or complain to god a few mins then faster moved on le haha
Am i alone .....haha i may look like that ...But haha WHO knows haha
lalalalala god test is always interesting but i starting to loving it again haha "god make my heart to loves it more "
Just to updates my readers i will do reflection daily...Reflection in god 's Words haha ....
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things.
Romans 2:1
Thank Daph
It a reminder .....
Interesting ...To me , if you cant be bother about the person why bother to even passed judgement .Waste brain cells and Time ....
I think it a grey area , haha if you cant judge , correcting is a kind of judgement haha How ???
So must hunt for the balance =)
In christian Living , there are many Grey Areas ,Want to play find me , Dont want to play also can find me
Haha If you dare to play .Prepare to be hurt and to destory other....Both come hand in hand ...
If you dont want to be hurt destory other ....If you dont wan to destory other then be hurt haha
For me , i am a type of person , who like WinWin and loselose Situation .
Is like in a business two companies decided to parther with one another .Both company sure want to gain their expected profit at the end of the day .As i said it expected profit , if the cant gain what they expected the will discuss so that both company agree .That is provided that the parthership mean alot to them .
LoseLose ...Hmmm i think what i mean it a draw haha
But sometime we have to lose to benefits the so called big picture ....
haha The process can be rubblish but at least it hit the objective.
It like math ....you can do so many steps but never hit your objective which is the correct answer la .Your mind will say sian have to rework or Wrong only what ...But when you hit the objective , you will say woah my hardwork pay off .....
Why am i in church that an interesting question ???
Just Stop to think what i do why i do ???
If i wan to be a slack christian i rather choose the world .....
Being a slack chirstian = No purpose and wasting time
Let me take some time to reflect people to impacted my life in the spiritual sense i mean . First of all , want to thank god for "Lynn" thank for all your encouragement ,correcting and rebuking haha not many people bother to i guess ...Hmmm i think not i think fear me. But who care haha .
Despite being shouted at sometime ,you choose to link everything you haven spoken to god's words . Even you cant do much you still reminder me to seek god .
Hmmm i can say my dad nowaday he bother to go to my level to understand me .On the other hand i go to his level to understand his thinking .I sure love it being two ways not one-sided .haha
Sometime i wonder will god tested me in this area a not .Because one thing i can proud about in my life is my family haha I think dont even need to wonder one is SURE test one la ....God got many trick up his sleves one .LOL..
If i want to blog everything its in my mind ...I think it will be a rollcoaster ride Postitive to negative , Hopeful to hopeless .haha
Romans 2:1
Thank Daph
It a reminder .....
Interesting ...To me , if you cant be bother about the person why bother to even passed judgement .Waste brain cells and Time ....
I think it a grey area , haha if you cant judge , correcting is a kind of judgement haha How ???
So must hunt for the balance =)
In christian Living , there are many Grey Areas ,Want to play find me , Dont want to play also can find me
Haha If you dare to play .Prepare to be hurt and to destory other....Both come hand in hand ...
If you dont want to be hurt destory other ....If you dont wan to destory other then be hurt haha
For me , i am a type of person , who like WinWin and loselose Situation .
Is like in a business two companies decided to parther with one another .Both company sure want to gain their expected profit at the end of the day .As i said it expected profit , if the cant gain what they expected the will discuss so that both company agree .That is provided that the parthership mean alot to them .
LoseLose ...Hmmm i think what i mean it a draw haha
But sometime we have to lose to benefits the so called big picture ....
haha The process can be rubblish but at least it hit the objective.
It like math ....you can do so many steps but never hit your objective which is the correct answer la .Your mind will say sian have to rework or Wrong only what ...But when you hit the objective , you will say woah my hardwork pay off .....
Why am i in church that an interesting question ???
Just Stop to think what i do why i do ???
If i wan to be a slack christian i rather choose the world .....
Being a slack chirstian = No purpose and wasting time
Let me take some time to reflect people to impacted my life in the spiritual sense i mean . First of all , want to thank god for "Lynn" thank for all your encouragement ,correcting and rebuking haha not many people bother to i guess ...Hmmm i think not i think fear me. But who care haha .
Despite being shouted at sometime ,you choose to link everything you haven spoken to god's words . Even you cant do much you still reminder me to seek god .
Hmmm i can say my dad nowaday he bother to go to my level to understand me .On the other hand i go to his level to understand his thinking .I sure love it being two ways not one-sided .haha
Sometime i wonder will god tested me in this area a not .Because one thing i can proud about in my life is my family haha I think dont even need to wonder one is SURE test one la ....God got many trick up his sleves one .LOL..
If i want to blog everything its in my mind ...I think it will be a rollcoaster ride Postitive to negative , Hopeful to hopeless .haha
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Let me up date with a song that make me "Emo" Haha and it make ppl emo too lolPart of a Fool
I've been there before and just can't let go.
The memories and pain of the hurt i know.
Now deep in the night, and there's passion inside....
Dare i follow my heart?
An innocent smile, then a walk in the night.
Then it's dinner at home served with candlelight, and it's been quite a while since i felt good inside.
Dare i follow my heart?
Do i feel something special inside of you?
Do i know what you really think of me?
And the raindrops keep falling into my heart,
and i just can't deny what feels so right.
Do i let myself go and feel the rain,
or should i play with caution and refrain?
Whatever i do, when it comes to you,
i know sometimes love plays the part of a fool.
I know what's in store though i can't say much more.
A chance worth the taking has opened its door;
and i can't say i love you, and i can't say i don't,
but i do wish i knew.
by Juwita Suwito
I will put the song up for a while ...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Got my new mouse .....Borrow two books with some interesting content .It all about the mind .My mum hope i can read some other than mind thinking book .She said in life there are many things you can control .I said sometime it help understand oneself .I will say i understand myself quite well .Why i felt this way ? What can i do to prevent it ? Etc
I find the content super interesting ...It can apply to ANYONE ....BLIND SPOT !!!
Yesterday We quite a great day , many unexpected things happen yesterday or maybe i took the chance to take the first step . My lesson was as tough as usual .Never one day i say it is easy . MAth and math and math .One mistake all wrong .That why this kind course training you to be criticital & detailed thinkers . Sometime i think i am quite a critical & detailed person.But if you see some of my faci you speechless .I will say the world love critical & detailed people as they are very practical .haha
Let moved on from lesson ,yesterday i also have my NYAA meeting .After most of my classmates left .And what remain was some classmates who was joining NYAA or Red Cross .So i just saw the chance to know them better .So i ask them if they want to go to the canteen to have a bite first .Haha as expected they agreed .I manage to talk to them beside she work .haaha for me my class have more gals than guys again which i dont like .So i dont talk a much in class .But at that point of time they were a little surprised i am quite talkative .
I will say i managed to know them a little different be surface relationship .One of my classmates will be one of the committee member of the NYAA club but i really hope i am not .But like cant run one .LOL
Next will be an unexpected visit to Mind cafe , I did told someone or some people i not going .Just to clarfy i did not lie .haha it just due to unforseen situation then i decided to go. Go then indirect i felt at the begining people was like dont like to see me go like that haha really i dont get that feeling haha
But maybe i think too much haha
If you ask me did i enjoyed i will only say still ok ...haha
On the way home did some clarfying which i like to do .But not alot of people like haha
haha when at hm , i saw one of my old fren emoing online so i decide to drop i msg "emoing ah "
As usual She will say " not la bahbahbah " Then she started to pour her probem haha about BGR again i think i handle this type of case more than i faced it .LOL facing it required a mind power it alone can be draining .But also must depend what the problem ,some probelm very easy settle but say untill ver complex haha .
haha let moved on , the sad think she keep saying i forgoten her haha i was like "err" .My heart was like i think it the other way .But on the other hand i see it a chance to in her for service haha
I do wonder how many vistiors got will give me haha i sure want to see my fren to convert and grow constantly .Not convert after a while then leave .If not why waste time converting .haha that my thinking haha .
This blog dont know me well ...haha if you get it good
10:24:00 AM
Let moved on from lesson ,yesterday i also have my NYAA meeting .After most of my classmates left .And what remain was some classmates who was joining NYAA or Red Cross .So i just saw the chance to know them better .So i ask them if they want to go to the canteen to have a bite first .Haha as expected they agreed .I manage to talk to them beside she work .haaha for me my class have more gals than guys again which i dont like .So i dont talk a much in class .But at that point of time they were a little surprised i am quite talkative .
I will say i managed to know them a little different be surface relationship .One of my classmates will be one of the committee member of the NYAA club but i really hope i am not .But like cant run one .LOL
Next will be an unexpected visit to Mind cafe , I did told someone or some people i not going .Just to clarfy i did not lie .haha it just due to unforseen situation then i decided to go. Go then indirect i felt at the begining people was like dont like to see me go like that haha really i dont get that feeling haha
But maybe i think too much haha
If you ask me did i enjoyed i will only say still ok ...haha
On the way home did some clarfying which i like to do .But not alot of people like haha
haha when at hm , i saw one of my old fren emoing online so i decide to drop i msg "emoing ah "
As usual She will say " not la bahbahbah " Then she started to pour her probem haha about BGR again i think i handle this type of case more than i faced it .LOL facing it required a mind power it alone can be draining .But also must depend what the problem ,some probelm very easy settle but say untill ver complex haha .
haha let moved on , the sad think she keep saying i forgoten her haha i was like "err" .My heart was like i think it the other way .But on the other hand i see it a chance to in her for service haha
I do wonder how many vistiors got will give me haha i sure want to see my fren to convert and grow constantly .Not convert after a while then leave .If not why waste time converting .haha that my thinking haha .
This blog dont know me well ...haha if you get it good
Sunday, May 11, 2008
HAPPY MOTHER 'S DAY hahaFor me , my mum know that i love her that for sure ...haha And if you think stephen a type of person who can be very sweet you are wrong .For me i felt that i really can do alot of funny thing to show the people whose i treasure that they are really valuable in my life .But what i do sometime have to be fitter so that it will not to stumble people which i never like to do .
But since it for my mum i will stumble no one muahaha =)
haha I was reminded by my ex shepherd .He is a really sweet bro haha .I can really during v-day he will buy roses for all his sheeps .I will say not many guy shepherd will do that haha for me i know him as someone who reall show love by action haha .
Let get started , sat i went hm quite early to prepare the monther day gift with my sis .The actual plan was the prepare should be done by 12am .But i did not . My mum was camping in my room using my lappy . And my sis was hunting around the house for her LOST key .How interesting ?
The whole thing dragged for quite long ...We start doing at about 12plus ....
I am not good at art but i can say my sis is better .haha we folded my heart . She did more on the straws hearts as she had more time in the afternoon i did the paper hearts .I reuse the black board remained on ck bday haha
These are some hearts that i folded
This is the 90% work done before adding our notes
This the final product
We finished the whole thing at about 3 plus 4 haha interesting but it rare that i work with my sis to do things together lol .
The reason why we have to do so late because my mum had work the next morning .So in the morning she can see it when we are sleeping lol
After everything , one of my good fren from youth came to talk to me online .His name is walmond kan .He is a drummer in Wam in youth .
haha he one of my ex shepherd . Beside asking about mum day , he ask about my gf haha as usual . I will say he like to aim that area of my life .As in youth he like to tease me .haha but he is a loving guy .As random as usual , his view about BGR is quite open haha he said if it good for you go ahead haha I will say WAM ministry it a total different minitry .He and his ex sheep all entered Y-WAM quite young .Both of them were in my ex cg in youth . Walmond enter wam when he was 16 his sheep 15 haha interesting right .It a total different lives style there trust me
Sometime i am proud to be in "St Andrew Sec " As there are quite a number of strong people in church who are related to SA. There is like 3 musicans in Y-Wam whose are in my ex Cg before .So cool .
I think i going to sleep Wahwah i keep thinking ......
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Interesting interesting interesting ....I felt many interesting thing is happening to me .Firstly let talk about today ...Today then a training Class conducting my Andrew for the unit ...In the mornin i was like thinking should i go or not ....But due to today tough problem i dont not really think much ....After school , i when to the canteen to wait for the unit .I was surprise gal group got do confirmation who is going .Then i ask andrew "whose who nv give confirmation can dont go right" To me he just avoided it ...He may think it is wise i dont know .But i will said we waste alot of time ....I was like "huh" can we maximize our time ...I totally no comment la it about 1hour plus just sit down ....I felt my heart was not ready for this teaching which to me it a skills factor.
Learn how to do ,dont mean we will do it .
I was struggling to go or not...As i dont like to do thing for the sake of doing ...It do or dont ...I dont know if many ppl noticed but it over ...I was like asking god can you hint me ??? As we walk to the liabaray found a room , before andrew was about to start he said "you guys came heart because you have the heart to learn or etc etc " Everyone was like yeah yeah yeah !!! I was like is it a hint ??? Hmmmm Everyone was like so happy and i have the pressure not to leave ...But i took it as a hint ....So i say my heart is not ready can i leave....The room Suddenly become so silent I was like "ok"...Andrew was like i tot i meeting you later ...He said "really ah" Then he said "ok"....
On the home , i nv felt so realx before .Like a big stone on your heart MIA..Quite joyful on the way back .....When i reached home , i did not eat my dinner . I nv even said a word when i reached hm i just walk to my room change ...Then my mum came to me and said"hey i brought dinner for you .It on the table go eat "
I was LIKE you must be joking !!! It is so WOW !! How she know interesting right ??
Then i asked hey mum how you know i haven eat yet ???
And i will say mum can be quite lame at time ...She answer "because i your mum what "
I was Like DOts la !!!!
Really love my mum !!! She really a person who let her action do the talking ....Doing so many thing but nv complain and dont wished for any return...Sometime the one different i can say between my family and my spirtual family is one know chirst one dont .
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Haha today when back home for dinner after Service , interesting i think my family like worry about me LOL....I think abit too emo haha but do some acting ...My mum cook Chicken Soup today haha ...But i learn le haha but scared cant remember lol...
I really felt very love ...Because i reached hm at about 9 plus everyone have already eaten .But i still see a lot of Soup left .
I asked my dad "yours never drink soup ah ??"
My dad reply " I think your sis will drink second round later "
Then he added " Hmmm maybe they felt you might need more than them "
My heart really melted Wahwah...
After that When out with jas LOL than is quite late .....She ah no comment ...keep doing things like want ppl attention ...When to drink with her and chat a little ...I think i made ppl worried ..ver sorry haha then send jas to bus stop then went home to rest ..... LOL
Friday, May 02, 2008
Haha 1st may wat a rreally a crazy day ....Emotion just went up and down haha Up as in not that high but down it super terrible ....Before that i am a bit stress with issues in my life .We are suppose to go to sentosa to celebrate Andrew Bday .
I went there with three objective :
1)To Relax A little
2)Celebrate Andrew Bday (My shepherd) (Spend time with him )
I will break that day into a few posts: As it is a ver long day
Dear readers i will filter as little as i Can , No name will be said at all so no worries
I went to this event with expectation to relax and to enjoy haha
Let start the day going , In the morning , some of the RP unit meet at harbour fort MRT Station at 11 am. After meeting we went to Shop for Andrew's present and his Cake haha As i walked and talked , i really enjoy the time .
Let moved a little faster , if not it really a long post .When we reached Sentosa , did at a fun time at the begining .Talking ,Swimming ,Listening to the waves it so .... Like worries free . But this period last for a while only .
Haha When i started to see somethings tat stunned me .That mean it not only one thing LOL haha .....To be Continue in my second POST i wore Long sleeves today i Forgot that i playing bball with classmates today .... Haiz