Haha this few days cant really sleep well .... like so many things in mind . Like who is the one taking charge of the group ...Are CLa suppose to take charge ???? What are the roles of CLa ? Supporting the CL or more ? So many ppl are working why am i not ? Sometime i want just to do things i want to do .Find a service jobs gets experiences , get attached , train people who have a teachable heart and not patiently encourage them to have .

I can say i a bit mis focus this few weeks . Tell you the truth who want to be CL? if you dont have the heart at all .If it is for personal gain you took up that role is super dumb . . I can say i can impact chirstian without that name "CL" To me , it just a name there is nearly no meaning to it .

Am i excited to go service hmmm nowaday i really have to think ? What is shepherd and sheep ? It mean a lot to me in the past . Now it almost meaningless ...Should we account to your shepherd ? yes we should but be wise . Know your shepherd well b4 accounting to them ...Dont account blindly !! It more toward responsibilities than toward care and concern here it is true ? I think depend .Ask yourself why you want to be a shepherd ? And why you want to take care of god 's flock ? The reason why am i here today
1) I ask myself a lot of questions (To understand why i do what i do )
2) Remember how faithful is god in my life
3)Knowing that you are living a life with god not for god

Do i have Holy discontentment ? I have but i abit sick and tired or having tat so getting rid of it soon .But come to think of it .If you love god it is no possible to get rid of it lol .....

I dont think this post will stumble anyone ...

Stephen From Y-RP
11:06:00 AM